That Sulky Feeling of Underachievement.

I have reached the bottom line a few times in my life. I have dealt with feelings of loneliness despite being in the midst of loved ones. Consequently, I have also had recurrent emotions of worthlessness., the sulky feelings where nothing seems to make sense despite traceable achievements.

I have got to deal with a lot of not-too-happy feelings. Many times, I feel am not where I really want to be on the ladder of success looking at my age. No one has ever told me that age and success are twins, but, somehow I find myself scrutinizing my very essence of existence.

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My little Dark Side

Something died in me when my friend came knocking on our door that day. On top of her very long list of achievements, she just got admitted into a top university. We had been on this journey together, but, somehow, she got a university of her dream while I still hung on the tiny sleeve of hope, praying and wishing for a miracle.

My friend had it all. She was very popular within our community, she could talk effortlessly without thinking while people listen enthusiastically and she was as fearless as a lioness. She could go on a battle with anyone, boys in our area feared her for sheer strength and physical agility. She was an athlete and she was well known for her intelligence.

She didn’t have the abundance of physical beauty and was a bit shorter in height; I felt I had more in appearance when compared with my friend, yet, she had more, much more than beauty and height could acquire. (more…)

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